Accept Yourself

                                               I am so sorry. I haven't made blog post in awhile.

So, recently, I've been think about beauty and what means to be fat, curvy, over-weight, skinny, etc. I looked up my BMI and I was overweight. I was shocked and a bit depressed. Then I realized something a few weeks latter. I started working out more and playing volleyball. I was able to run faster and farther. I felt healthy again. My stamena was great,  I was cutting calories. I stopped snacking so much, but the weight wasn't falling off. I lost about 10 pounds. I wanted to be that skinny girl, but I couldn't be that skinny girl. I wasn't built that way. It was then I started to accept my curves. Yeah, I am  a curvy girl. I may not be skinny, but I am healthy and fit. Now, after 3 months of consistent working out I can do 100 jumping-jacks, 50 crunches, 30 situps, and cardio. I can rock a pencil skirt. I am beautiful. I had stop wanting something that would never be mine. No matter how skinny I got I would still have curves. God Blessed with this beautiful body that I have come to accept. We all are give a body. We don't get another one. We need to learn to love and accept it for the beautiful creation it is. If you are skinny girl, you don't need to have curves. You are still beautiful. If you aren't a super muscular guy, you don't need to be. You are still handsome. If you are a super curvy girl accept it. You are gorgeous. It doesn't matter what body type you have. What kind of hair you have. What color your hair or eyes are. You were made in the image of all powerful God. You are wonderful creation. That is why I had to accept that I am curvy and beautiful. You are beautiful too,

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It Is Not To Be

It Is Not To Be

Everytime I think of you

I remember you

I remember your smile

I sometimes scroll through your pictures

I imagine my hand in yours

But it is not to be

I look at our old texts

Our silly conversations

I remember the first time you called me

Beautiful

I thought you were wonderful

You still are

But we haven’t talked in what seems like ages

Everytime I think about you

Why I loved you

I fall in love with you again

Everytime

The scary part is that I don’t know if you love me back

You’re quirky, smart, and sweet

That is what makes me fall in love with you

I remember the feeling I got when I talked to you

How everytime I think of you it puts a smile on my face

I loved you

and I still do

I keep on falling in love with you

But the scary part is Do you love me?

Don’t you love me?

Or is not to be?

Is this feeling that causes butterflies

This feeling that makes me smile and dance

Do you feel it too?

Or is not to be?

The scary part is that I don’t know

But everytime I see you just a glimpse

I fall head over heels for you

Everytime I remember why I loved you

I fall in love  with all over again

I know we haven’t talked in awhile

But I loved you

And I still do

I will never stop falling in love with you

Until you say it is not to be

To Be a True Hero

Hero? It is a term you hear on the news and in stories and pretty much everywhere, but what does it really mean. According to Merriam Webster Dictionary it is a mythological or legendary figure often of divine descent endowed with great strength or ability or one who shows great courage. This gives us a general idea of what a hero is, but what is separates the heroes from the average people.There are several legitimate answers. Superhuman powers, courage, strength, These are all true, heroes can posses these things. Though, the essence of heroism can be explained in three words bravery, loyalty, and love.

Shaking, Sir Gawain stood before the Green knight. He steadied himself preparing to receive a mortal blow. He was afraid yet he was working through his fear. In the story Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, many good and bad characteristics were shown. The story began when the Green Knight made an unexpected entrance at King Arthur’s New year's feast. The Green Knight challenged everyone there to give him a blow with his own ax. A year later the Green Knight would return the blow. King Arthur appalled decided to take up the offer, but Sir Gawain stepped in front him and took this mortal fait. He gave the Green knight the fateful blow. He comprehended when he stepped in front of King Arthur that he was risking his life. Surely, he would die. Willingly, he pushed aside his fear and faced the Green Knight. A year later he faced the green knight again. After three blows from the Green Knight, Sir Gawain survived. He showed bravery in his willingness to sacrifice his life for a good friend. He was a true hero.

Loyalty, it is hard to be the person that stands with someone else through the ridicule, but this is a mark of true friend, a true hero. Wiglaf from the old story Beowulf possessed this trait. When all of Beowulf’s friends had deserted him, Wiglaf stayed by his side and together they fought the dragon, who mortally wounded Beowulf. Beowulf in turn mortally wounded the dragon. Wiglaf never did leave his side the entire time. Even as he was dying Wiglaf fulfilled his dying wishes. Ashamed were the deserters of Beowulf. They did not posses the nature of a true hero like WIglaf They were only simple cowards. Wiglaf stayed, even with the trials that Loyalty can bring the joys are worth far more, true friendship and heroism is a treasure worth far more than any Gold.

Love, one could say is the greatest of all values. Love encompasses all others. If you love someone, you will be loyal, brave, kind, generous, and the list goes on. Love is what truly makes a hero a hero. Whether that love is for a stranger or their country. Love is woven into the fabric that makes a true hero. We can see this if we look past the folly in the Canterbury Tales. Palamon and Arcite fell in love with the beautiful Emily. Palamon spotted Emelye. He was overtaken by her beauty. He points her out to his cousin and friend Acrite. They both fall in love with her beauty. Now, willing to fight to the death over a girl they barely know. After many events that land them free from jail . A stadium is built by Theseus for them to battle for Emelye. Each with a 100 men on their sides, they doughtily fight for Emelye. Arcite dies trying to marry his love. Palamon lives happily ever after with his love, Emelye. They showed love for Emelye in the willingness to fight for her. Although it wasn’t wise to lose a friendship over a girl who simply attractive. Their love for her is apparent

Love, loyalty, and bravery are the marks a true hero bears. He is willing to die for a cause even if 

he is scared. She is willing to remain loyal even when things are extremely difficult. Heroism is a quite 

simple term once you take away the fancy facades. Heroism has its bare bones is something you and I 

can do daily. We can all be heroes. It is not the amount of difference you make it is the fact that you

made a difference. Love may seem foolish at times. Loyalty may be hard. Bravery may be scary. If 

you those things overcome the negatives, you can be the true hero you were destined to be.


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Freedom

I look in the mirror. I see my face. It is tear stained. I look like total chaos. I look like the chaos inside of me. My hair is everywhere. My mouth is a ruler. I feel sort of delirious. I have to do this. It is not worth it. It isn't too much pain too much sorrow. I take the knife and slit my wrists. I had already written the note to my family and " friends." I lay on my bed. I let myself bleed out the pain. As I lie there dying my life flashed before my eyes. The menacing words. The turned backs. Being turned away left out disregarded and unloved. The shame of the feeling when I knew what he had done to me at that stupid party. The only party I had been invited to in High School. I knew it was too good to be true. That those popular seniors actually wanted to be my friends. They just used me. The worst part is that no one would believe me. No one would believe what happened to me. No one would stand up for me. The only one who believed me was my mom. She and my dad were the only one who ever truly cared. Why did the police not believe me? All these people that let me suffer alone. They will probably come to my funeral but they weren't my friends while I was alive. They did not come to my birthday party. I sat there alone. I was waiting. The rejection I felt was felt alone. The voices of my peers "No one likes you." "You are ugly." "Maybe you should kill yourself" "You're fat." "You're stupid." "You're just a fly." I could handle that but those who called me their friends making me look like a fool. Tick Tick Tick Tick I feel myself letting go. Just like they let go of me. I feel the darkness enshroud me. Strangely it feels good. I am dying and I don't feel panicked. I am just going to sleep a long eternal sleep. The pain is gone and I feel free.

Never Alone

You are never alone. I know life is not pretty. I have gone through my own trials. Sometimes you feel alone like no one cares. Whether it is the loss of a loved-one, homelessness, bullying, depression, abuse, or anything else you may face. You are not alone. God will catch every tear. He sees when you cry. He is there. Just know you are never alone. 

In Psalm 56:8 it says God records our misery." Record my misery;list my tears on your scroll are they not in your record?" He is there with us. He will never leave you or forsake you. He will be there to the end of time. You are never alone. I know some days you feel alone. You feel forsaken. Let the tears fall. Let God catch them. Let yourself feel the pain. Let is out. If you need to cry cry your heart. He will be there, He will remember. Don't hold the torrent of tears back. Just let it flow. Let them race down your cheeks. It is freeing, because the dam will break, but God will be there with you when it does. He will catch those tears when they fall.

 I know it is hard to trust God, when you are going through something. It is okay to be angry at God. It is okay to ask questions. It is okay to falter. Your trust in God may bend but it won't break. He is the silent force that keeps you going even when you angry at him. Even when you don't trust him. Even when you question why? Sometimes you just need to yell at the heavens and scream WHY?!?!? Why have you done this to me? I have said that before. You simply want to know why? Why would  a good God allow this to happen to one of his own followers? I have asked this question so many times. So many times. There is no real answer. Just the comfort of God.                                                              

Sometimes when you feel alone, it seems like you can't make it through another day. I begged God just to get me through one more day. One more day. While you are suffering, each day feels like a year. It seems the pain will never end. The hurt just goes on and on. God will get you through that one more day. He will. So just take it a day at the time. The pain will end. I know it doesn't feel like it now. I know you feel alone, depressed, and forsaken. Just now you will never ever be alone as long as you have him the King Of Kings. He will comfort you. Matthew 5:4 states, "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." He is there by your side to comfort you.

As you face trials. AS you question God. As you feel dejected. Remember God is with you. You are never alone. I know it may feel like you are, but you aren't. God hold you in his arms. You are safe with him. He is your protector and he is your king. He will hold you and love you and comfort you even when you are angry with him. He loves you and he never want you to me alone.

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The GMO Bill against Labeling CALL YOUR SENATOR!!!

The GMO bill against that stops states from labeling GMO's. This is not good. House Bill 1599 has already passed through the House of Representatives. We must stop this from passing through the Senate. Therefore I strongly compel you to contact your Senator and encourage them to vote no. If we fight this bill we can stop it from pass through the Senate. 
At this point, if you don't know what GMO's are you are wandering why this bill shouldn't be passed and why GMOs should be labeled right. First let's take a look at what GMOs are.

GMO OR GM stands for Genetically Modified Organism or Genetically Modified. But what exactly makes a food Genetically modified specifically plants? Genetic modification in agriculture is when a plant for example corn or Zea mays (its scientific name)  has the genes of a bacteria for example Bacillus thuringiensis, which is sometimes used as a pesticide, added to its own genes through a process of recombinant DNA technology .  But what does this do? This helps the corn plant make its own insecticide. The gm corn plant creates a Bt toxin that kills the insects. Genetic Modification is adding genes of different species to the genetic code of another species.  Some plants that are genetically modified are Soy, corn, Canola, cotton, Sugar beets,  Zucchini, Squash, papaya, tomato, rice, wheat, potatoes,  alfalfa and  even milk.

Now you know what is why is it bad? Our world lab shows a direct correlation with the rise of Diabetes, Autism, and Arthritis and the introduction of GMO crops AS you see by these graphs.  This could be merely coincidental or proof that GMO’s cause health problems.  

“If toxins and bacteria are leaking into the abdominal cavity, the body will respond as if it is under attack. In addition, according to Dr. Pusztai, “The body will regard any genetically modified substance coming into the digestive system as foreign [because of its mutated DNA].” The body responds to foreign substances by triggering an immune response. This can be instant, as in an allergic reaction, or it can be a slower, cell-mediated response. Food allergies and immune diseases of all kinds are also soaring. Incidence and prevalence data trends are unavailable because many were rare until recently (fibromyalgia, celiacs disease). Other immune diseases that are on the rise are: asthma, eczema, lupus, Addison's disease, Grave's disease, rheumatoid arthritis, multiple sclerosis, psoriasis, and psoriatic arthritis.”

Genetically Modified Food could cause diseases and other serious long term effects as discovered in the real world lab by Professor Pusztai.

Another problem with GM crops are their toxins. Remember the corn that released the BT-toxin to kill the bugs.  If It kill bugs is it perilous to humans? The answer is Yes. New Research from Canada has discovered that this BT-toxin can kill unborn children by destroying their embryos.  Although Monsanto claims this product is perfectly safe. It is not.  The BT toxin can also kill human cells. But the toxin is not present in corn in large enough amount to kill an adult quickly. There was also a study that took place over two years one of the very few lab studies.

According to the Scientific American “The study found that rats fed for two years with Monsanto’s glyphosate-resistant NK603 maize (corn) developed many more tumors and died earlier than controls. It also found that the rats developed tumors when glyphosate (Roundup), the herbicide used with GM maize, was added to their drinking water. .”

These are a few of the reasons why GMOs should be label. I hope after reading this you will immediately contact your senator and encourage him or her to vote no on House Bill 1599.

My Sources are Listed Below
http://people.csail.mit.edu/seneff/glyphosate/NancySwanson.pdf


http://www.britannica.com/EBchecked/topic/897705/genetically-modified-organism-GMO
dHUhttps://blog.honest.com/understanding-gmos/#.UYyHRYI-dHU
http://www.cnbc.com/2015/07/22/gmos-congress-may-block-states.html

The tragedy of Racism

The tragedy that happened in Charleston, SC is disheartening. Racism is a tragedy. Racism is not over. IT is not done. In the words of the most looked up to civil right leader, Martin Luther King Jr., "They are now committed back to that eternity from which they came.And yet they died nobly. They are the martyred heroines of a holy crusade for freedom and human dignity.And so my friends, they did not die in vain. God still has a way of wringing good out of evil. And history has proven over and over again that unmerited suffering is redemptive.And so I stand here to say this afternoon to all assembled here, that in spite of the darkness of this hour, we must not despair. We must not become bitter, nor must we harbor the desire to retaliate with violence. No, we must not lose faith in our white brothers. Somehow we must believe that the most misguided among them can learn to respect the dignity and the worth of all human personality."

The words still ring true in our society. Racism is not over, but steady progress has been made. Progress is being made. We must continue the fight. We must not stop until love has won. We can see the war between love and hate continues to wage on and on from the late Trayvon Martin, whose death wasn't brought to justice, to the current situation which we face in Charleston, SC. 

What happened in Charleston, SC? 
A man, Dylan Rood, entered the church prayer meeting. The church was a predominately African-American church. He sat there for an hour and I assume that they welcomed him into the church. He then turned on them shooting all but one person whose life was spared. This act was committed by a deranged, evil, and racist person. He believed African-Americans had taken over America, which is obviously false. He wanted to start a civil war. He had confederate flag license plate. He believed in white supremacy. His previous actions indicated the potential to violence. He did not care about those he slayed or their families.

The people that were murdered in cold blood were innocent people trying to worship God. People lives were snuffed out. A pastor waging the war of love was killed. A well-known speech therapist helping teens with their speech. A young man, who graduated from college and loved knowledge. These people did not deserve to die. Their lives cannot be gone in vain. We must be solemn and continue to fight until loves rings true everywhere. Until loves rings true in the capital building. Until love rings true in the courts. Until loves ring true in every heart in America. Until love rings true through our country. We have no choice but to fight the good fight to do what's right. So Let us stop the tragedy of Racism here and now.

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For more information on the Charleston Massacre Go to these links:
http://www.cnn.com/2015/06/18/opinions/bergen-charleston-attack-terrorism/index.html
https://gma.yahoo.com/charleston-shooting-closer-look-alleged-gunman-dylann-roof-203816813--abc-news-topstories.html